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[Sunday
March 26th, 2006 at 12:44am] |
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yea tonight was fun, i didn't get to hang out with emily cause she doesn't feel to great. but i had fun with the boys. we were playing pool all night and i took my mom's car out for a ride and i cleared the train tracks on prospect st. going like 75 no joke. Jay asked me to prom yay!! now i don't have to go by myself. jon is going to look out for me after prom- what can i say, i seriously consider jon to be like that big brother i never had.
i am drinking this mineral water that i bought on the way home, it's pretty good.
la ti da....
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[Saturday
March 25th, 2006 at 2:08pm] |
watching hitch right now, what memories that movie brings back... great times, i just wish i had more candy that afternoon. I still didn't see those pictures from the arcade either.
anyway, i didn't go out with the guys last night- tonight i'm hanging out with emily and we are making a "scrapbook", well actually something like that "burn book" on the mean girls movie but less degrading...i just want something to take to college with me. you know, being over 3 hours away is going to make me sick- literally. i get homesick so easily. it's kind of soon to think about this, but i narrowed down my graduate school choices down to three. so anyway, i am going to hang out with the boys tonight, but emily is going with me and then i'm going home, so i am careful- i need some of my friends to know that i can take care of myself.
la ti da....
so night, and sweet dreams, i'll be on later
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[Wednesday
March 22nd, 2006 at 9:27pm] |
where did all my friends go?? just in the matter of about 4 days, i was called stupid, literally; i can't trust my guy friends enough to get drunk with them, and i hate that people won't even talk to me.
la ti da....
night, nightmares tonight?
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[Monday
March 20th, 2006 at 3:33pm] |
yea, today i spent the first 4 periods of the day in guidance doing scholarships, i'm glad i'm done. then i had physics and then a current events test. I came home and now i am going to the bank to order bank checks. so much easier to pay for college. ha ha, jay thinks he's having sex with me on friday night cause i'm getting drunk- but i don't think so cause he's a whore... lol. well i'll speculate on that later- just ask.
okay, so i'm going to the bank then walmart, and then to pick the little sis up from drama. she had a monologue due today i guess. i'm proud of her i guess- she's the manager and she's onlya freshman!
la ti da....
ttyl, call me.
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[Friday
March 17th, 2006 at 4:06pm] |
i haven't been online for a while for a couple reasons. my phone line hasn't been working but it was fixed today yay!! i don't really care, but my cell phone died wednesday at school which sucked.
wednesday night i went to the pepsi. 5 bands played but we missed the first one. There was this crazy metal band called heroine, they looked like the wanted to be KISS. then there was Hawthorne Heights, All American Rejects, and Fall Out Boy. Holy shit there was awesome pyrotechnics and light show w/e you wanna call it. we were right there, less than 20 feet from the stage. colleen crowd surfed, but i didn't want to get dropped- maYbe next time.
didn't go to school yesterday, just stayed at colleen's then she went to nick's house while i stayed there. lol watched MTV and typed my essays for scholarships that were due today.
someone fricken broke into my locker twice this week. it's not even cool. uggh what a day i had today- and to make it even betterr (lol) is that i'm DD tonight for my girls. but i'm prolly going to work with a hang over sunday- lol.
la ti da...
well going to the dance tonight, i'll be on after that- after friendly's prolly... text me!
today's Dove PROMISES Message: Love without rules.
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[Saturday
March 11th, 2006 at 10:46pm] |
okay i definatly went to pownal with emily tonight, just to do it. yea, i have to say we were pretty bored. we went to spring street in williamstown and definately got checked out by a wicked cut college kid. ha
but earlier today, we went to the mall then we went to deidre's to shop for a prom dress. i'm stuck between two- one is white with orange and pink flowers, and the other is a blue spotchy halter top. they are both long enough, but i dunno which one to get. i like the blue one more. but hey, we'll see i'm going again monday after school.
well i'm going to take a shower, make my bed, and go to sleep cause i have work tomorrow morning.
night.
"DJ won't you play this girl a love song
She really needs to hear this freaky love song
She's lookin' at me kinda hard, I can tell that things ain't right on the home front
What she really needs is a G like me to Beat a beat, beat it, beat it"
~so true
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[Saturday
March 4th, 2006 at 10:28pm] |
okay i'm on again, i can't stop listening to Jamie Foxx.
what is the most sexiest thing about a person, what is the first thing you notice about a person, and/or what is the most important trait about a person??
mine is guys' voices- maYbe that's why i listen to guys music more than girls that sing. i dunno what it is. a guys voice is the most important thing to me- not what he says, but how he says it, a guy need to calm me down. collen and dawn (my boss) say that after college, i'm going to come back and just marry my best friend- damien, but i don't think so girls, cause i don't love him. he can calm me down, but there has to be more romance, he doesn't do anything except flirt and w/e. i know for a fact, that if a guy truly likes and/or loves you, he will work for it no matter what.
that's all i have to say tonight, i'll be home tomorrow (Sunday) at like 4:30ish, call me please.
la ti da.... night, and sweet dreams.
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[Saturday
March 4th, 2006 at 7:11pm] |
"Ever The Same" Rob Thomas
We were drawn from the weeds
We were brave like soldiers
Falling down under the pale moonlight
You were holding to me
Like someone broken
And I couldn't tell you, but I'm telling you now
Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you and we'll both fall down
Fall on me
Tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you, forever in me
Ever the same
We would stand in the wind
We were free like water
Flowing down
Under the warmth of the sun
Now it's cold and we're scared
And we've both been shaken
Look at us man,
this doesn't need to be the end
Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you and we'll both fall down
Fall on me tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Call on me
I'll be there for you and you'll be there for me
Forever it's you
Forever in me
Ever the same
You may need me there
To carry all your weight
But you're no burden I assure
You tide me over
With a warmth I'll not forget
But I can only
give you love
Fall on me tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Call on me
I'll be there for you and you'll be there for me
Forever it's you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Forever it's you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Ever the same
i cut my foot last night on one of my shoes. yea i stepped on the heel of a dress shoe. the ones that i remember dave said he likes. eww i should throw them out. anyway- i love this new Jamie Foxx cd. i went to target tonight after work, and through all the things they have, they do not have a lanyard- for like your keychain. i ven asked them, but my mom gave me free starbucks : ) she can see that see's the manager. lol well i'm going to take a shower, and i'll be on later.
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[Friday
March 3rd, 2006 at 10:36pm] |
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i wish i could ask a question to someone, but i have to wait until i see him....hopefully it'll be soon. but for now Jon Cantoni is putting a smile on my face for a few days now, cause he finally smelt the lotion i am using, and he can't get enough of it. i mean- the kid comes to my locker between classes just to smell my hands or the lotion. i don't know why, but just that little bit of attention is cute and infectious. i'll admit that i actually wanted to kiss him yesterday, but i didn't. it doesn't even matter if i say any of this because no one reads this anyway. I did kiss Jay though....it's been a while since i've done that. lol. well i'm sick of typing and i have to work at 8 tomorrow and it's already past 11. night, sweet dreams.
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[Tuesday
February 28th, 2006 at 9:18pm] |
well my birthday is in a couple days, which is nice. my friends are talking me to village for lunch after school, cause we have a half day, which makes the day doubly better. then i'm home that night for dinner, then maYbe to Damien's for the hot tub if it isn't too cold out, but it's supposed to snow alot on thursday i guess.
right now i'm doing homework that was due monday, but hey, i went on vacation! gimme a break....
la ti da...
and happy birthday to army man brian cause we are birthday buddies.
i think i'm starting to get sick because i have a runny nose.
what happened to that sweetheart i used to know?? Trev, we don't even talk anymore and it's killing me. you should have a chivalry class for all those assholes out there, and i'll be the next cassandra french- ha ha, start my own finishing school.
"Baby... I can be in your heart
So many things I want to tell you"
i finally saw one of my brothers basketball games, which was cool but i wish it wasn't his last one. and the poor kid fell and hurt his hip. well now he can't say i didn't go at all.
well this is how i vent now, i can't do it anymore. sweet dreams everyone,
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[Friday
February 24th, 2006 at 11:16pm] |
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soOoOo...
went skiing with matt and mac for a few days and now i'm back. yea it was great but i was late to work coming home today. ohh well and my week went by too fast. tomorrow i have to decorate for the dance, and i'm going to th dance with someone i don't even want to go with. i'm always stuck with the fricken losers. eww. and i like did something wrong with my hand after work tonight and i fricken almost twisted my nail off. it still hurts.
uggh i don't fricken know anymore.
wow i'm a chicken... i don't even want to get my tattoo anymore and my birthday i thursday. i just don't know
call me, i need someone to talk to.
"Does he leave when you need him the most?" yes he left, i need him now. and to make it the worst- it's all my fault
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[Sunday
February 19th, 2006 at 10:10pm] |
Look
I aint got nothin ta say to you
I cant even believe you
You know what
Im too fly for this shit
You playin yourself
what the fuck- i can't trust any guys out herre anymore. i just can't wait to go to NH this week to hang out with my best cousin ever, . and (his) bes friend matt...
and if anyone cares, I got my nails done the other day!! i'm looking a little more like a girl each day.
well it's sunday night right now, and i'm watching my show obviously... and some special event is coming up soon, in like a week and a half. doesn't matter too uch a guess, maYbe to colleen, cause she's flipping out that her oven doesn't work. lol
sweet dreams, i've been having some lately : ) i guess....
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[Tuesday
February 14th, 2006 at 10:42pm] |
♥Valentine's Day♥
sucks- Colleen got 30 flowers today. a dozen of them being gorgeous red roses. shut up i can be jealous....
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[Sunday
February 12th, 2006 at 9:22pm] |
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♥Valentine's Day♥
well it's not the dreded day yet, but it soming really fast. i asked for the day off, and i don't even have a reason! even though i asked for it off and didn't, i'm glad i didn't cause i'd have nothing to do anyway...nice. i'll get my own valentine's day someday, lol
so i watched house of wax this morning, yea that movie is insane. i'm getting my nails done the end of this week i hope and i still need a dress for the dance. uggh. and i don't have a night home this week cause i'm working tuesday, wednesday and thursday. monday night is the game. uggh friday i have to clean then go to the mall then to emily's house.
la ti da....
"so long, and good night. so long, and good night."
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[Thursday
February 9th, 2006 at 11:00pm] |
well so much is going on right now
i know of 4 guys that like me right now, but why does it have to be me?? i mean, i guess i might want a relationship, but i need to ease into one, like very slowly.
1. James amigo likes me, i know that he's sent me a flower for valentine's dayy, and he told colleen that he wants to go out with me.
2. then there's dave, who fucked up and there is going to be some major explaining to do..
3. damien, my second best guy friend has already asked me out, and he still likes me...
that's all i feel like typing about right now,
i need someone to talk to, my specially made 3-scoop from friendly's and a deep, relaxing back rub.. that's my heaven right noww.
i'll be home tomorrow i think, maYbe i'll sleep or something... but prolly not. i'm having guy issues.
la ti da.... sweet dreams, hope to talk to you tomorrow! (call me)
i am loving Jamie Foxx right now...he's such a talented singer
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[Monday
February 6th, 2006 at 11:09pm] |
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I watched the proverbial sunrise Coming up over the Pacific and You might think I'm losing my mind But I will shy away from the specifics Cause I don't want you to know where I am Cause then you'll see my heart In the saddest state it's ever been This is no place to try and live my life Stop right there That's exactly where I lost it See that line Well I never should've crossed it Stop right there Well I never should've said that It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back I'm sorry for the person I became I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again Cause who I am hates who I've been Who I am hates who I've been I talk to absolutely no one Couldn't keep to myself enough And the things bottled inside Have finally begun to create so much pressure That I'd soon blow up and I heard the reverberating footsteps Sinking up to the beating of my heart And I was positive that unless I got myself together I would watch me fall apart And I can't let that happen again Cause then you'll see my heart In the saddest state it's ever been This is no place to try and live my life Stop right there That's exactly where I lost it See that line I never should've crossed it Stop right there I never should've said that It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back Stop right there Thats exactly where I lost it See that line Well I never should've crossed it Stop right there Well I never should've said that It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back I'm sorry for the person I became I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again Cause who I am hates who I've been Who I am hates who I've been Who I am hates who I've been And who I am will take the second chance you gave me Who I am hates who I've been Cause who I've been only ever made me I'm sorry for the person I became So sorry that it took so long for me to change I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again Cause who I am hates who I've been Who I am hates who I've been (nightt...these are only the perfect words to say)
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[Sunday
February 5th, 2006 at 7:39pm] |
holy shit this weekend was awesome!
last night i went to emily's and had dinner. then we went to the hockey game and watched muh girl colleen! go girl. the this morning i got up and barely made it to work on time. then on the way home i picked emily up and we went to her house for a minute, to get my comso's lol
then i came home and took a shower, hurt myself on accident, now i'm doing nothing.
but i just had to write about this song i've had stuck in my head all day. it's called "Wonderful World" by sam cooke. it reminded me of Hitch, cause it's the intro song.
la ti da....
i'll be up for a while, like 11. and i'll prolly be late to school tomorrow. but for now i'm gonna watch the game (GO steelers!) and do my homework till my show comes on.
sweet dreams (night)
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[Saturday
February 4th, 2006 at 11:19pm] |
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damn,
"i think i need a bottle with a genie in it..."
i'm so jealous, i'm so infuriated with myself lately. i mean, how can you tell someone you love them?? really lol. i might actually love this boy, and i don't know why...
OH EM GE...everyone should know by now that JLo is pregnant!! they are gonna have the cutest little latino baby ever.
well that's all i had to say, and no matter what, i'm not telling anyone who it is. night
la ti da..... i'm starting to work out now- collen as turned me into a zombie of herself... which is not a bad thing at all, it's actually pretty good that her great habits are rubbing off onto me!
sweet dreams!!
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[Saturday
February 4th, 2006 at 1:35pm] |
okay, okay,
i didn't update last night like a said i was going to...
there's alot to it: first, i put highlights in my hair, and straightened it, then i came home (from emily's) and i was online at like 9:30ish. then, i started to download AIM triton, when i fell asleep at like 10 something (i always fall asleep when i'm cold). the tv, lights, and this laptop were still on at like 4:00 when my dad got up for the fire, and told me to go to bed. but by then the laptop died, cause it was so many hours later.
and emily called me at like 9 this morning, because he dogs woke her up. and of course i wasn't awake. i guess trevor called too. i finally got up at like 11:30 or something.
i called everyone back and finished downloading triton, after i charged this thing for a few minutes. now i'm trying to figure the damn shit out.
Jamie is over herre ranting about how much Valentine's day sucks. i totally agree with her. but i bought my two best friends flowers cause i felt like being nice. and as far as a know i'm getting 2, but just from friends. of course, who else would i get it from- but i don't really care, cause i love being single!
so excited for february vacation! mac is coming over again, and we are going to NSP's in Albany again. then we are going to his aunt's condo in NH for a few days. It's going to be nice not being home for a while. and i'm going to see trevor sometime that week- i'll make sure of it. lol
i guess my car is going in the shop soon, prolly this week. i hope.
i'm gonna get some music from somewhere, cause i know what song i want, but ican't get them anywhere. well i can, but i can't at the same time. you know. but i'm making a list of music i want. i love this XM radio!
emily, susanna, and i are going to the mall tonight, so emily can be her girlie-self and get her hair cut, and get her nails filled. yea, i'm kinda into that stuff, but she actually has someone to impress. but then again, i know of at last two people who want to gt with me, but it's because they think "it's a waste that she's a virgin cause she's so hot." yea...
now what bitches! ha ha
shit i can't wait till college. 1. i can't wait to be closer to my family, and friends that i have down therre. 2. all the new people i'm going to meet 3. no one will know i'm a virgin unless i let it get out. and 4. they have a gym that i'm going to subscribe to and have an even better toned body than i do now.
i'm looking for a prom dress... and i know exactically what one i want- but it's tiffany's so it's prolly like $400. eww
well i guess i'll ttyl, talk to me anytime, just send me an email! i check that shit every day cassandra.mcnary@gmail.com
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